I died one time and I've never truly recovered, I learned to find comfort in alcohol because it would stay with me. You were what made everything function and everything was perfect because of you. I learned to suppress and repress my emotions so I didn't feel an emptiness inside like my body had a hole blown through it by a cannon of despair. I've learned since then to transfer my never ending, undying, unholy love for you to other things. It worked really great for a while, I felt human again, I felt like I could make it. I no longer feel human and it's not all your fault but I have failed in erasing the memory of you from my being. I've lived many different lives but at the end of everyone your ghost haunts me, bringing me a feeling beyond any words I know how to try to explain with. I've lived many lives but I've only died once, in that moment "We" became "I" for eternity.
Written by Johnny Blade
Posted on 11-13-12
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