Crazy

They never did like it when I held my head up high, when I looked people in the eye as they walked by, they told me that was a sure way for me to die. I wonder now if it would have been so simple for me to leave this physical realm, I know now I could float away never coming back but the thought to me then left me overwhelmed. 
As I got older I started going down my own path even though I knew I would feel their wrath, 
but what they did to me was far worse than anything I ever imagined. When I started looking within myself for the questions I needed to know, they left me all alone, inside I felt as cold as snow. The torture of them no longer being with me sent me into all kinds of crazy, I became too busy trying to bring them back that the world started seeing me as lazy. I still feel the void they left as if they took a part of me with them or as if they were actually a part of myself. Maybe I can bring them back but it's been so long I'm sure I'm no longer wanted and that hurts, I can forget them and feel no detrimental pain but I must end my emotions and kill my brain first. If you read this please come back and at least stay briefly, I went towards the truth but I miss you both, you must believe me. I've created other sides of myself but nothing will do, I know you were imaginary but all I want is you.

Written by Johnny Blade
Posted on 11-12-12